being not in love

^Edited entry

I am still 'fighting' for the sash belt (refer to my previous entry). Haa~ You guys might think that I am crazy to go ga-ga over this kind of 'pretty' or rather 'pink-ish' stuff. Well its love-at-first-sight, so I am trying my best to get it. Argh~ enough of my auction stuffs instead I should really really get down to serious stuffs. Indeed they are of higher importance than my 'wants', but sometimes I just dont get my priorities right.

Sometimes I do wonder, as I think back to the past - the days where I was still an ITE student. How and where on earth did I get the motivation for me to hold on and firmly believe that I could make it to poly. In my class, though I was never among the top few and can you believe that for almost every month I would receive letter from my form TO regarding my attendance? Yet I was among the few that finally made it to poly. Friends gave me words of encouragement and praises like 'your results must be very good to make it into poly' etc. If I was really that good, I would be in NP but however am already glad that I am in TP. But to compare, the environment is different - of great difference I would say. In ITE, we the students are being 'spoon-fed' by the teachers where our notes are either in those compiled booklet or distributed during classes. But since the class is small, its easier to those in doubts to ask and their queries answered. In poly is whereby we are grown-ups, ready to do everything ourself of course with more responsibility and independence. Its a cruel and practical world. All of us have to learn to mature and grow-up, not to behave like small kids anymore when it comes to serious matters. Perhaps its the 2 years age-gap but I dont think there will be a big difference. Sometimes I do feel that some guys are still very immature as in the way they present themselves, their slip-shod work, their attitude etc. Yah true that all these are none of my concern or what but I cant stand the sight of all those 'unpleasant' things that I saw.

In the past till now, I always do last minute study or revision. But now its 6 modules and not just 3 or 4 as before. Seriously I am beginning to panic, days ago I even dreamt that I did the wrong thing for the VBA paper. Its one of my not-so-confident-of-passing module, the codes, commands, debugging, errors etc. Well actions speaks louder than words, so its no use ranting non-stop here but to get my brain working.

2 tutorials to complete before I can go to bed.

So wish me luck,
good nite!

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