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Pictures ...
from Wednesday.@ Black.


Girls power~




Me, June


JoJo & June (the cousins)


Me, JoJo


Us 3

I guess Im having too much of late nights, eye circles are showing. Help!

Thursday

Dragged Lynne to the Loreal warehouse sale, its the first day and as expected we saw kiasu people. But nonetheless there are still kind souls around =*) Our combined receipt amounted to SGD 65 dollars. The items there were really so cheap as they were all bundled prices. The Loreal Professional Series were sold out! I didnt get what I want but I bought enough to cover my 'loss' so well its okay Im not so upset now. *Grin*

Medicines are yucky *Tongue out*
Dragged myself to the doc's with more than a million of reluctance yesterday. But she paid for the fees - SGD 26. She asked me why is it so cheap and how many/what medicinces they dispensed, whats wrong with my mum??
Nevertheless Im feeling much better now, thanks people. =))

Ting:
"Keep smiling, keep shinning. Know that you can always count on me for sure~ For good times, and bad times, I be by your side forever more. Thats what friends are for"

I bet you must be very touched hor? Haa dont weep please, this is meant to make you smile.
Love U. *Smooches*

Happy stuffs first, I got my watch ! Lynne + Mine = Couple watch

Ironing my big pile of clothes + arranging my messy wardrobe is enough to make me sweat.
Had a talk with my mum before she left for work, she doesnt wants me to continue my job cos the smoke is making me sick. Initially, before I started on this job I thought I could take the smoke and night life but seems like I couldnt. The overwhelming smoke are choking -- making me tear and giving me running nose. So Im considering, cos giving up my job means giving up my colleagues there. Im happy at work, though sometimes stressed about making blunders over money matters cos afterall, money is a sensitive issue. Oh well.

Nowadays everyone is getting sick, so take care !

Im building a pile of tissues and sneezing away as I typed, my throat is hoarse and Im surviving on lozenges. Im sick, I hate medicines. I seldom get sick and when Im sick, it means that Im awfully sick. Im all alone at home =*(
Met up wif Karen & Lynne at town yesterday, had dinner and Kbox. Okay I know Im being such a b*tch yesterday at Kbox, sorry~!


Woods is nicer than Strepsils *Grins*


The young drummer that we saw at Orchard, he is only 6 years old !




Singing away~




She twists, I twists, She twists too!


Duo - why is Karen missing?


Me

Bumped into Cal and guys at Heerens. Joined them at Happy, nice pub - nice zen layout, nice music, nice bodies, nice toilets as well. Im really bad at playing 5~10.

I hate my sexy voice. Damn it.


Sacrificed 2 days for Wednesday, I think its worth it. Gee*
The postman just came and knocked on my door, and I greeted him with the messy just-woke-up hair of mine. Hope he is not startled by my appearance. Haha I got my Aeropostale mini that was mailed from London. Nice!

Might be posing as hair model next week, do bundling - as in hair up. The previous one was glossing. I dont wish to walk out with those bee-hive hairdo, guess he wouldnt know how to do that too. Haa so I guess my hair should be quite safe. Im still thinking of should I get the hair products (shampoo + conditioner) which in all costs SGD 67 bucks after the discount. Yep its pretty expensive, or I should say its damn costly but yah I know good stuffs usually costs more. And he was being kind to tell me that he can get staff discount for it.

Owed 3 meals >.<

Blogskins is down, their server are always down so I can get any skins from there. Hence I decided to use this basic template for the time being. I used to dislike basic ones but after taking a close look, they are actually quite nice too. Simple - just what I want. I can be quite particular when it comes to changing skins, cos either its too plain or too fanciful or I just dont like it.

Rearing hammies is what I wanted all along, I love pups too but my Mum strongly disapprove of pups. So I decided to ask R about her new born hammies so she agreed to passing them to me. How nice of her. Im now thinking of what kind of cage to get, hammies stuffs etc etc. Im so excited! You can count on me to take good care of them. =*)

Work was fine. But I dont like Velvet, put me anywhere except Velvet. Can I not be stationed there? Pretty please? =( How I wish miracle will happen, something struck Andrew or what and I will be switched to Phuture or Zouk. And it would be even better if I can take off on Wednesday but Andrea is taking off so I doubt I can get it. But I will still try my very best to take off. Haha, for the sake of Pearly, Lynne & the club =P And Im trying hard to save up for the Hong Kong trip!

My hair is now tinted in Copper. It covers my oh-so-faded streaks of blonde hi lights and its looked so reddish now. Pearly says its nice, so does Jolyn. So sorry to make you guys (Pearly, Jolyn, June, Wendy) wait for me. =)

After that we went straight over to Black, joining the snake queue which was like - so long. Then we jumped queue over to join Pearly's friend. Haa. Then soon after we got in. Ting was supposed to come but she couldnt get in. Then I went over to join the guys who were already there. Whisky coke tastes much better than Whisky Ginger Ale =P Then joined the girls at the dance floor. Wow so happening can and Im so crazy (like what Pearly says -_-") She makes me out to be some crazy woman. Bumped into BingZhang, I was so surprised to see him there.
Haha Calvin was so sweet, picked up Min Min, BingZhang and me, and sent us home. Thankiew~


Okay, Im back to blogging ! Ive got lots to blog about, to make up for the long MIA-ing.

Pictures first:


A nice one. After the econs paper


She is cute, Im retarded


Self-obssession

Will be heading for 2 interviews tomorrow. One is the telemarketing job and the other for iPod roadshow. I hope I will get the latter =*P Obviously the pay is good, at least good enough for me but provided that I get the job. No use saying so much now.
Took the BA2 supp paper this morning. I managed to finish every part of it spare for the Cash Flow Statement where theres a few blanks. One thing, Im not pleased with my seat number cos it bodes ill. Call me pangdang. I was wishing that they gave me '3 8' instead. Try saying it in chinese -- '4 8' Hope I can clear this round and not die a terrible death. Ting is '4 9' Haha. Oh yah, thanks to the 24-hours BA2 helpdesk hotline that was opened yesterday.

Supp is finally over at 1130. Im free !! Now bothering over what to don for tomorrow. Like what Pearly says, she dont want to fall and die. The same goes for me too. I fell, landed and hit my butt against the steps the other day, the big patch of blue-black is still there and *ouch* it still hurts. Good thing is that its not on visible areas. Im going to throw that pair of sandals into the bin! Anyway I wouldnt wear it again. Urgh thats what slippery soles does.

Mark's Stuffs

Thats the beauty mark bag, shimmer powder, gloss, shadow & blusher.

Gap corsage




I love the newly launched scents and they comes with beautiful bottles! Im eyeing some watches as well. Out with Lynne to Bugis. A turquoise top, denim skirt, pair of pumps - makes a whole set from top to toe. Im still thinking of the other denim skirt, should I get it?


Awoken by HJ, he had got his result so he called to check if I had got mine. I stared at my phone as I ate my breakfast, awaiting for the important sms. Then shortly after my results came.
I flunked one - BA2. Ooh supp paper =(
Actually I thought I would flunk more than one. But seriously I didnt really put in much effort so its true that I reaped what I sowed. Got to check online tomorrow to see the schedule for the revision lecture as well as the supp.





The thought of having to work later makes me sigh, I be stationed at Bar 2 today - no more Phuture. I need fresh air. *Gasping*

Was reading the April issue of Female magazine. Chanced upon iPod shuffle, aww my new target. Hehe. And the newly launched DKNY fragrance, smells delicious. Results will be out soon, I supposed? No idea when it will be realeased. Anyone knows? Had sakae sushi buffet yesterday, Im craving for it again. Haa.

I seriously hate it when people misunderstood me, when people threatened me. I really cant stand it. The hurt is the deepest especially its caused by close ones. When it comes to my mum, I am really felt so hurtful so much so that I felt so weak and helpless. I cant find the words to explain myself or how to solve the problem.
The trust she had in me is eaten off, bit by bit. And I dont know how can I put it back.

I dreamt of her that night. She was chiding me, I dont quite remember what I did to make her fuming mad. But I woke up crying badly. Im real scared that shes so mad with me. All the while I tried to please her, being the eldest in the family I should be a good role model for my siblings but I didnt.
When I was in Sec 3, I defied her and started working part-time for the sake of keeping my mobile line. I paid for the monthly bill that amounts to about 80 or 90 bucks per month with my salary. Sometimes I even worked until closing which was like until the wee hours for the sake of earning more, the consequences I had to bear was much more than I expected. I rebelled my teachers, slept in class, I submitted a blank paper for my physics class test. I took up smoking, stole from shops, skipped school, forged medical certificate, the discipline master Mr Ow called my parents, my dad almost hit me with his thick wooden rod when he knows about the MC thing, my mum shielded me and she was devastated. Sometimes I stayed out with friends until 6 or 7am, loitering around. She was angry with me, she didnt even want to say anything much though I was hoping that she will. As a result, I did very badly for my 'O' levels. I cant make it into Poly, my aim was Diploma in Law & Management. I flunked my maths and science and my grades could only land me a place in ITE. When I saw friends around me discussing about the poly's stuffs and matters, deep down I was feeling low but I covered my feelings. I dont want anyone to despise me. I am someone with my pride and principle, I believe that since others can do it I can do it too. Thus not giving up hope in studies, I enrolled as a private candidate for the next 'O' levels examinations but at the very last minute after much thoughts, I backed out. I decided to proceed on with my studies at a place where never once I thought I would be. Whenever people ask me about my studies I felt ashamed of myself. I didnt want them to know that Im in ITE where its dubbed as 'its the end' by many. I didnt want to admit defeat. I scored mainly As, Bs and 2 Cs (in my first year) throughout my 2 years stay there. I was awarded bursaries for my academic results. During the third semester, I was given the provisional entry to poly. The last and crucial semester, I scored got 2As and 2Bs, cumulative gpa was 3.409 which gave me the chance to enter poly.

Sometimes I just hope for some words of praise or compliments from them. I will be satisfied even just for one short sentence. I am working hard for myself and I want them to be proud of me, my achievements, even though I am 2 years later than others but I am going to get my diploma and degree. I am crazy when it comes to spending and splurging, somehow retail theraphy makes me feel good. To avoid nagging from my mum I had to smuggle stuffs into my wardrobe when she didnt notice. It got worsened after the last second break-up, I been spending like nobody's business and even got myself drunk with 5 mugs of Tiger, puking into a big bag and behaving like a drunkard. Thats the most pathetic sight of me that anyone had ever saw and I dont even drink Tiger beer from that day onwards cos the taste still irks me.
This is my life and I rule it the way I want it to be. I make my own decision, I wouldnt be ruled or be lead by the nose. Affairs of the heart will be secondary to me, friends are my top priority especially those who were standing by me when I felt alone or lost. Money is important too, thats why Im trying to earn more now since its the hols and save up. Yes, I admit that I had changed. Everyone changes with time, for the better or worse it depends on how you see it and past experiences.

Guess its a real long entry. Enough of my emo issues, thanks for bearing with me. I felt much better after all these rantings and I will still be myself but stronger.

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